Every once in a while I reveal my ignorance, not intentionally, but because something got my attention and I thought I ought to share it. But here's the thing. It seems, I'm not enough.
I'm not Christian enough or American enough. I can't seem to get myself all jacked up and foaming about injustices and sins. I can't get myself into that whole blood thirsty big bad evil that we have to go out and take care of. I can't get into the God wants this and that, the Bible says this and that. It does. I know. I've read the thing. I know what it says. But, I know, there's no but allowed in Christianity. I guess there is in my version. Let's face it, everyone has their own version of Christianity to a certain extent. I think in a little bit of a way, it's supposed to be like that because we're supposed to have a unique and personal relationship with God.
Personally, God doesn't convict me to be on top of politics and world events and sins of others. He does convict me of my own sin a whole lot, so if you don't mind, you can leave that part out of your condemning comments. I know where I'm wrong, more clearly than you ever will, because I live in my own mind and heart. I know my sins. And so does my God.
I'm not able to get on the band wagon about the expense of this or that, how unfair it is to this people group or that one. I can't seem to rile myself up over the way one thing is eventually going to lead to another via slippery slope. I just think, yup, this is one badly broken world full of messed up people needing a Savior.
It seems to me we spend a lot of our time and energy as Christians and Americans being angry. We claim a lot of tolerance, but we really don't have any, we're all about confrontation, condemnation and criticism. We do a great job of couching it in pretty terms, we're great at manipulating language to make the meanest of things sound nice, but really? We're not all that nice. Even in our churches, we'll take a person who wants to be involved in something or another and run them around and around finally convincing them they're not "gifted" in such and whatever. Again. Read the Bible, know that gifting is real.
We even glamorize our hate. Think of all the movies and TV shows and books about clicks and what in essence boils down to bullying. Then we turn it all around and make it righteous by doing a Bible study about how not to raise "mean girls" or whatever is the fad du jour.
And yes. It's human nature. We're a broken people. Got that. But we're not helping ourselves either. Notice I said here, helping ourselves, not condemning someone else.
Ah, whatever. Cast your stones. I'll bear my ignorance.
